WARNING collective insanity inside

meh...

Sat, 06 Mar 2004 08:31:15 GMT

Do people say things just to piss you off intentionally? Lemme see I went to the movies with my best friend whom I'm just starting to talk to again after a rather big fight. I was happy then, I come home and my mum rings my aunt. She says shes getting multiple virus' from mum, or emails from people she doesn't know.... so mum asks me to have a look. I have a look and wat do I find? Wow, what a shock! They're virus' all of them!

I explained this to mum and wat does she do? Go fucken ape shit at me! She yells at me because I was only trying to explain something to her then she yells! Wat kind of gratitude is that? She asks me to do something I try to explain it and she yells at me. Then she FINALLY worked out that I dont want to go out to dinner tonight... why? Because I hate going out to dinner. My uncle is taking us out along with my grandmother, who I dont like at all. And the end solution: "If you dont want to go out tonight you tell that to Uncle Keith!!" She yelled that at me just because I dont want to go.

I got yelled at because I was trying to explain something then I got yelled at because I dont wnt to go out for dinner. I fucken hate my life at the moment. The only thing good in it is that my best friend and I are friends again. I have too much homework, out of 6 subjects I've got homework for 5 of them. All of which are TEE. They are all due on either Monday or Tuesday, plus on top of that my tutor has given my homework which i have to do by monday night. I have an essay due in week 10 (week 6 now), I have an in-class essay in English, plus i have to read a book by wednesday, on monday, an art quiz on monday, a geography test and a history test on friday, a maths test next week, my graphics technology is being marked this week and I have done nothing in it cause I am the one whose helping everyone. That doesn't include that my ashma (sp?) reacts emotionally, so I have an attack when I'm stressed.

I dont have any time to do what I want to do. I dont have the time to draw what I want to draw, I dont have time to catch up with my friends, I dont even have time to go to the movies with my cousin! At the moment I just want to dig a hole and keep on digging. I just want to give up and everything thats how bad its getting. I thought this year would be good, fun, interesting but it isn't. This is the worst year in my whole schooling life! I'm going to fail my Intro Calc, my history is boring, my geography is far too easy, my graphics tech is piss weak, my art is rather boring as well and my english is the only interesting subject.

I want to drop out but I cant. Sometimes I wonder why I continue to go on as I am... why dont I just drop everything get a job and live my life being a check-out-chick! Or better yet, someone kill me and I'll be happy..... *sighs* none of you prolly want to hear this crap but I have to write it down. Its not like my diary in my room is exaclty private either. If things dont improve soon I'm dropping drawing, and anything sociable. I'll put all my time into school, then everyone will know wat my temper is like.

w00t

Thu, 22 Jan 2004 05:08:01 GMT

I haven't updated for a while aye? Well anyways, I'm still on school holidays but i start the new school yr on the 2nd of December so I'm like arugh . . . . anyway . . . . taken' i few quizes oh yea . . . ive also got a new obsession ^_^ NARUTO!!!!
THE MAGNA NARUTO ABSOLUTELY RULES!! THE ANIME TOO!!! IRUKA-SENSEI IS SUCH A HOTTIE AND KAKASHI ISN'T BAD EITHER . . . . i'll shut up now . . .

Which Naruto Character are You?
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^_^ so true . . . well except that dirty book part -_-;;

What Finding Nemo Character are You?
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heh cool ^_^

My inner child is sixteen years old!

Life's not fair! It's never been fair, but while
adults might just accept that, I know
something's gotta change. And it's gonna
change, just as soon as I become an adult and
get some power of my own.

How Old is Your Inner Child?
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-_-;;;;; same age as me . . .

<<>>???What Kind Of Angel R You???<<>>( Anime Pics )
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well wonders never cease . . . okay one mroe then thats it

Weapons are not your thing. You would prefer to
pummel your opponent to death with your fists
and feet. You show a lot of Honor but some
power still eludes you. I can give you this
power, I can make you stronger, join me.

How would you Murder?
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heh . . . i liek the martical arts anyways so i'm fine w/ this now ^_^

Sat, 13 Dec 2003 10:07:22 GMT

One more week of school left, thank god . . . . actually I've quite enjoyed school lately. Quiet alot of things have happened though i wish they never did happen in a way I'm glad it did happen. Its involved with the guy i like. His known sence Saturday (my bday party) and he kinda told me on tues . . . but no big biggie now, just gonna take me a while to get used to him knowing -_-

ANYWAY . . . my birthday party was last Saturday night (6th Dec) and it was alot of un. Lisa, Rachel, Alistair, Mark, Mitchell, Laura were over. So were my aunt, uncle and 3 cousins. Aaron and Kirsten were supposed to be there as well but they had other plans which happens and I'm not totally fased. Paula rung that night, which reminds me I owe her a phone call . . . . anywayz, yeah it was pretty fun. *snickers* my sister got my a fireman calender which is auotgrapthed by Mr December XD I absolutely love it! Its hanging on my wall already, in December and I'm like *drool* XD

Teachers are evil beings . . . esp two teachers at school . . . Rachel gave me her cooking which is short bread. I was eating it cause I was sssssssooooooo hungry yea anyway, two teachers were standing near out group and I had abit of short bread out of my mouth. I cant remember what happened but my short bread flew out of my mout hand onto the ground. Both teachers saw, one started laughing and the other commented "If your going to spit, spit in the other direction not at your friend" I glared at him and they both laughed. Anyway, I was in the canteen with a drink and I saw the same teacher. I glared at him and Told him that he was an evil teacher he laughed and said was my drink to wash it down . . . evil teacher. Anyway, out side he told us all to go to class. And I turned around and said that from now on his going to be known as the evil teacher, so he said and your going to be knwn as the student that spits . . . . . . I CANT WIN!!! His evil!! But least he has a sence of humour.

Anyway, that was really pointless but it was hilarious. I got really nothing else to say so yer . . .

Danielle

Stuff it all

Fri, 05 Dec 2003 12:59:43 GMT

WARNING: Rant, self moping, and language . . . if you dont want to read it dont read the journal then

Who the fuck fails their Learners twice!? TWICE!! FUCKING TWICE!!! I went for the first one on Wednesday which happened to be my birthday . . . 18/20 . . . damn was a fucking pissed off about that! I went to school and I was depressed. The ONLY person to give me sympathy and any self confidence was the one person I DIDN'T expect it of!! I thank him but he wont see this, and I wont mention his name.

Because I failed that I pretty much had a disapointing Birthday though there were some bright perks of the day . . . sort of. Went for my Learners again today . . . 23/30 . . . FUCKING ONE OFF!!!!! Have you got any fucking idea how many questions Lisa asked me today . . . I got em ALL right!!! AND I FUCKING FAIL!!!! I swear in the 11 yrs I have been at school (including pre-primary) my self confidence has not been so low . . . including all the shit I copped. Twice . . . twice = two times . . . TWICE I FAILED!!!! My self confidence has not been so low in my life . . . . . .

I burst into tears when I came out of the police station because I failed . . . I got in the car and dad was hugging me . . . it didn't help . . . got home, saw mum . . . hugged her and I started to cry again . . . . . . all year . . . ALL FUCKING YEAR I have NOT been able to achieve something worth wild! NOTHING!!! The only thing that has made my year good is having new friends, and my two bestest friends always talking to me . . . . . .

Why do people expect so much from others? Alot of people think I would've passed my second time . . .WELL GUESS WHAT?? I DIDN'T!!! People . . . my family . . . my friends . . . expect to much of me . . . too much . . . I'm stupid, I'm an idiot, I'm fat, I cant pass anything . . . . . people take advantage of my kindness . . . maybe not so much now but a while ago it happened.

The only things that have happened to me these last couple of days that have actually made me happy and actually smile is the kindness Christina, Lisa and Mitchell gave me, the msg's that I recieved from my best mate and Dim-chan, and the hugs I got from Alistair . . . . those are the only people that have given me any type of self confidence these last 3 days . . . . the only people. Not even my parents, or my family have. Their all my friends . . .

This wasn't directed at anyone in perticular . . . even if it was . . . I wouldn't say their names

woooooo At school . .. . How fun . . . though i'm with lisa ^_^

Mon, 17 Nov 2003 05:20:23 GMT

urm . . . yeah at school . . . skipped phys ed once again so I'm now in CADD . . . LISAS CLASS!!! W00t . . . yeah . . . urm . . . my BIRTHDAYS IN 2 WEEKS!!! YAY!!!! very coolness aye? Mitchell wrote me a poem too! It is so sweet . . . and Rachel and he might be getting me two hampsters, one from each. I know rachel is gonna buy me a hampster in a chicken suit that does that chicken dance . . . though if she cant she'll be getting me the kung fu one or one that is dressed like a fisher man ^_^
Yeah . . . um, what to write what to write . . . I DONT KNOW!!! I'm at school in CADD and I dont even know WHAT TO SAY!!! Oh I know . . one of my mates HAD a boyfriend but now his put their relationship on "poespond" . . . DO YOU KNOW HOW STUPID THAT IS??!! I told her so and so many other have too . . . argh . . . sometimes I wonder about her sanity!!111ONEONE . . . lolz . . thats such an on going joke on DA t is so funny.

Anwyayz . . Lisa is reading what I'm typing so now she can write somethng of her own in here :p

Lisa: i have thee so called friends rite are u wit me ... u c these people arebeyond decription they don't what there doing there up 2 something and i think i no what it is they'll proberly pretend that have no bloody idea what i mean but i'll twist their arms actually no not 2day juniors can't be bothered i have better things 2 do than speake 2 people who reall din't have a life other than screawing up people's happy litle lives must end now thanks danielle!

XDXD . . . that was lisa . . . bitching about some CERTAIN people that wont be named to save all your sanity minds . . . though I doubt your minds are sane anywayz.

Now Celia will write something ^_^

Celia she said hello she's a nice person don't worry danielle

o.O . . . okay she didn't write something afterall . . . IT WAS LISA!!! *ish scared*

urm . .. yeah I'm gonna end this now it's getting far too long!!

Danielle AND Lisa . . . yes you heard me I said LISA!!!!

yeah . .. I'm going now . . .

No his crutch is gone!!

Fri, 07 Nov 2003 12:15:18 GMT

Um . . . yeah okay let me explain . . . you see when I gave Kirsten my disposiable cam at the start of the year so she could finish the film . . . . she took alot fo pictures,, and the camera was stolen alot. And there was this one picture in there of someones crutch (yes he had pants on gezz) . . . . and it happened to be the guy I like a couple of months down the track ahem . . . anywayz . . . Kirsten took these photos including the crutch ones . . . and I only just realised today lolz . . . so yes . . . as you can imagine I'm not very happy that I've missed out my oportunatey to perv without him knowing lolz jk jk

Anyway got nuthin' else to say except that its the week end finally . . . and I have only just realised how many of my friends write poems o.O quite odd actually

No time ne?

Thu, 06 Nov 2003 06:27:17 GMT

yeah yeah I know I know . . . I've done this before and now you think I'm gonna go "poof" again ne? Well I've got news for you . . . its a big No no for that :p I'm staying cause i've descided to not forget about this, this time round lolz
*coughs* anywayz . . . urm . . . what to say? I got the day of school! Cause of a bug I have got hopefully only 24 hour . . . damnit, I cant do self defence in phys ed now, there wasn't enough people. HOW CRUEL IS THAT!!! Its so unfair *pouts*
Um . . . trying to catch up with some old mates from 2000 or 2001 but I'm not doing very well. A couple fo them I've got contacts for but its just a matter of time now that I've gotta wait in til they come online or reply to my emails -_-"
wait a tic . . . NOEL YOU USALLY READ THESE!!!!!! *coughs* Your one of the people I'm trying to catch up on!!! *points at friend list thingy* I know your still on here! *blinks* um . . . yeah *sheepsih*
These are the people I'm TRYING to catch/find again. . .
Vitani Da Real
LionkingOF - Laimika
Noel
Sync
Bagheera
Yazzi
Leona
Whisper
I know some of them have journals here . . . just a matter now of having the courage to speak to em. -_- . . . how cruel life is at these times. Nothing really else except the last time I wrote in this was earlier on the year . . . it is now only a month in til my birthday w00t w00t!!!! hehe . . . okay I think I've written enough for nowz :p